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| Hello, Melody Chan this blog is dedicated to you, I have a lot of things I want to say to you but ur offline sleeping and i forgot to say on msn plus its too long for texting so here we goes...
Basically I never admit defeat, but this time, I know I am DEEPLY TRULY in the wrong, i shouldn't of reacted like that, instead i should've just let myself calm then speak to yu like how we always did eh? but somehow i don't know what triggered me, well i guess i do but i wont go into detail, however though i was mad at yu and made yu feel shit, yu still forgave me just how a friend does and i really appreciate that, I am genuinely sorry on how I spoke about you and i feel like i need to apologise to you properly, so lets meet up some time ^_^''
Also, i know people are saying yu dnt deserve a friend like me and can do much better, but really they dnt actually know everything so they can judge me on what they know but as far as im concern everything between us has nothing to do with them, however ur the one knowing what happened yet yu still forgave me so yeh.. thanQ~.. But I'm in the wrong for publishing that blog on xanga letting the whole world know LMFAO ><'' ooppsieee =S carrying on.. I don't actually know what to say as all i just wanna do is give yu a hug and a kiss =) i know we're back to normal now, but i also want yu and tiffee to get better too, why give up on a friendship over something small?
When yu told me how yu felt when yu read my blog, a plane of guilt smacked me right in the face, i didn't know it would impact on yu so bad, i really didn't think yu would take it to heart, but when yu told me i didn't know how to respond i just sat there thinking oh shit =/ why did i do what i did ><'' and when daniel told me yu couldnt sleep that night that made me feel even worse, all i wanted to do was be a good friend by helping yu, but i guess the way i showed it was the worst way possible, tbh i wrote that blog outta anger, most things i didn't mean in that way =/ however im not gonna delete it cause it makes me reflect on the way i act towards my so called "bestfriends" ='( this isn't the first time i've just gone and wrote a blog i've done it to catrina too ><'' i always butt into peoples situations but really is that the best thing to do?
someone said to me..
"You do things for people to help them, but not everyone appreciates instead some people might turn around and say, Hey tze fuck off? ur not needed in this situation"
so from now on, unless people need my help then i'll help but if not i'd just be by ur side and support yu =)
also never thought i would say this but thanQ to all yu haters sayin melody shouldn't be friends with me, cause you've made me realise how important to me she is and i wouldn't like to lose her, without yu guys making me reflect on the way i acted i wouldn't of wrote this blog, so yeh thanQ haters? O_O lol..
but yeh thats it for now, so bye bye Melody <3
Tze Tze x
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| Which one are yu out of the two?
A real friend
or
A fake friend?
To be honest, we can be both at times, but really deep inside yu can only be one.
As most of yu might have read tiffees blog, i want to carry on for her...
so basically as she said, we got into a deep conversation and like i'm so glad i have someone who feels the same as me atm, cause really thats what friends are there for right? feel the same as yu do, whatever you feel they should too? ><''
haii i just dnt know if i can be bothered with a person atm, shes so oblivious to the situation that i dnt even think she realises we're "off" with her.. so yeh,
if ur a real friend or so yu say, then how can yu get bored of ur friends? =S unless they're just somethin there for yu? uno someone yu can use as a shoulder to cry on, yeh i guess thats what friends are for a shoulder to cry on but yu should pay attention to them to yu shouldnt just go to them when yu have problems =/ i mean wtf...? yu chuck ur real friends to the side go have fun with the ones yu havent even known so long? and like what.. when yu come to a dilemma yu just cry to us..? seriously wtf are we to yu? a rebound ball yu can just run back to anytime? =.=' fuck that cause im bored of picking yu back up every single time.
i can feel my anger rising atm, and i really think i should get it out by blogging, cause i know if i dnt get my anger feelings out i would snap at whoever annoys me next which isnt really fair, so readers be warned.
Im fucking pissed off with one particular person atm, REAL pissed.. shes a two faced bitch. SHE CALLS HERSELF A TWO FACED BITCH so i guess she wont get offended, but like what im pissed off with most is how shes wrote her blog shes writing it like shes bored of the "old people she knew" like basically her "old friends?" i dunno if its just me but im gettin the impression that she is just gettin bored and wants to try out somethin new, im not sayin tryin somethin new is bad but wtf? the very few GOOD things that happen in ur life are ur friends... and yet the ones who have been by ur side thru thick and thin ur chuckin them away? yu dnt find somethin new to try and just chuck away the old things like they're nothing to yu? cause tbh they're probs the most ur EVER gonna get... you've made NO effort these past few days/weeks? but yeh its not just me realising and tbh we're fuckin fed up with it all.. so sort urself out please, otherwise we're gone for good. HOPEFULLY THIS BLOG CAN FUCKING WAKE YOU UP CAUSE YOUVE BEEN SO BLIND TO SEE WHATS HAPPENING. YOUR SLOWLY LOSING UR CLOSEST FRIENDS. HOPE UR FUCKING HAPPY.
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| A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.
Thats just like life, in order to achieve what yu want yu have to take the first step..whether it looks like a long dull hard path yu still have to take the first step however long it takes if yu dnt take the first step trust me yu wnt get no where.
My life is starting to become more complicated as i grow up, no more simple life for me.. everything i do is depending on me now, whether its making easy or hard choices.
When yu was little yu was bound to be told that life was going to get hard, and that yu should be prepared for what was to come. However maybe yu didn't believe it at that point cause everything just seemed like a fairy tale to yu.
Being a baby meant, everything was done for yu from getting fed to gettin ur nappies changed, literally everything was done for yu... as yu grow up things start to change, yu start washing urself, yu feed urself, yu dress urself etc..
but life still wasn't as bad as the elders made it out to be.. nothing was as dramatic as they said it would be maybe thats cause we haven't fully grown into adults?
My mum always said to me, ur life is easy atm wait till ur older.. everything i do now is bein prepared for my future, my education for example, whatever i do in my school hours now will affect my years to come.. and yet i'm wasting the hrs sat there day dreaming =.='
hmmm anyway thats kind of off topic on what i wanted to blog about today,
basically.. what i really wanted to talk about is who you want in ur future and who shouldn't be in ur future..
some people deserve to be in ur future, the ones who make the effort to be in ur future.. the ones who are there for yu whenever yu need them.. these type of people are worth to keep, however they are rare to find.. People come in ur life walk over it and just walk back out, then what are yu left with? nothing but pain.
Sometimes when ur there for a person and they thank you for it at the time really makes yu feel good however when ur feeling down and yu need them there for you they just throw it back in ur face and tell yu to fuck off?.. these people are just giving yu a reason as to why they wont make it to ur future and yu shouldnt waste time on them...
Remember everyday is a opportunity for a better future, take the opportunity and cherish it.
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| Why is it him every single time and not you?.
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